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Tuesday 28 October, 2014

The Daughter


Born – burden
Mistakes – immense
Joys – unnecessary
Aspirations – unrealistic
Sorrows – overemphasis
Responsibilities - more
Dreams – impractical
Speech – unworthy
Strengths – negligible
Weaknesses – innumerable
Experiences – inconsequential
Marriage – relief
Death – happiness

Saturday 25 October, 2014

Hairy Tale

     I have been one of those people blessed with thick, black, wavy hair. Even when I cut it short, it grows back to waist-length in approximately a year or so. So when I first heard about Pantene’s hair donation campaign last year, I was instantly inspired. I knew such a phenomenon existed in the West as I had a cousin who frequently chopped off his locks for such a cause. It was the first time I came to know about such a campaign in India but unfortunately I could not cut my hair in time. I searched the net then to find someone who would accept my hair. The agency I found in Mumbai did not seem reliable to me and I was wondering what to do.

     Then one day, I attended a media workshop at St. Teresa’s College and in the newsletter I got from them, I read about their hair donation campaign. On further investigation I found the project was to my satisfaction and now I could finally do the deed. So I ran through the instructions and then approached my beautician. It was her first time but she did it a beautiful job of splicing of my hair in one go (I hadn’t read the instructions thoroughly unfortunately and it should not be cut off at one chop but 3/4 ). She styled my hair well and I was ready to face the world.

     I got all kinds of reactions: from the depressed (my dad) to the compliments (friends), from horrified (uncle) to the ‘you should have shaved’ (hubby). But I felt good having a maintenance free hair after so many years. Plus now I was getting loads of compliments where before I just used to look frazzled.
     But mailing it became a problem. The post office said they wouldn’t accept it as I had told them what it was when asked. I finally couriered inserting my own number with the address as they needed to contact someone. The lady there was most obliging when I explained the matter to her and helped me out.

     Just recently I was told my hair is already on its way to becoming a wig. So yes I did get to do something nice for Christmas 2013 which will bring a smile to someone’s face, someone who needs it. And next Christmas I hope I can bring another smile when I donate my hair again (hope it grows back completely by then).

     I only wish more people would join the cause since I pass people everyday who have long hair that only hampers them and adds little to their lives. With my short story I hope I inspire more of you to help another being like you live a seemingly normal life. 




Friday 17 October, 2014

Clipped Wings


You decided I must be born - I was.
You decided I shouldn't shed tears - I didn't.
You decided I was your punching bag - I complied.
You decided I would grow unattended - I grew.
You decided to shower me with abuse - I listened.
You decided my talents were worthless - I nodded.
You decided my spotless skin was ugly - I agreed.

wingless     shelterless     abandoned       bleeding      depraved       joyless

I look at you

It was never me. It was you.

Thursday 16 October, 2014

An Illumination

Raindrop on my camera lens
hankies wet with humidity
we trudge an unfamiliar road
to find a place, highly recommended.
Backyard Civilization's art gallery
Up the silent stairs
into the artists’ foray
shoes off
our lives left on hold at the entrance
we behold:
Part of series of paintings entitled "Fool's Garden"
gardens of extraordinary colours,
peopled with fools from varied ages,
Part of painting on paper entitled "Time wounds all heals"
and heels wounded by time
having stepped on seeds of different generations.
The virtues of a village
Tea-stained pencil work about replanting the virtues of a village
captured our imagination
as they walked past us
to a new location, a new destiny.
Our eyes were drawn away
to the warm welcome of a fur ball
Resident at the gallery examines our bags
following an inspection of our luggage
and begging for a caress.
Only to be drawn back to an explosion
of colour and design -
mesmerizing psychedelic art.
Though bats fluttered by
they were second to the dismembered limbs
pulled apart by a generation of women
without thought or virtue.
Derrida continued to contemplate on us
Painting of Derida
As we examined Humpty Dumpty before the fall
Series of drawings loaned for the exhibition by Jidhil. Top right corner reminded me of Humpty Dumpty.
and emerged with a new set of feathers.

Sunday 14 September, 2014

Chennai Checklist

When I met you I had on me:
  • a broken heart
  • an abused soul
  • a lifetime of anger
  • social rejection
  • flurried emotions
  • a longing for love
  • a heap of panic attacks
  • a blownup side effect body
  • a friendless mind
  • appreciation, well-starved
  • minimal human contact
  • an increased desire to belong
And you gave me a receipt for:
  • TOTAL ACCEPTANCE

Wednesday 6 August, 2014

A secret life

I thought people only lived here
in apartments and villas
but I discovered
life on the staircases
when both elevators broke down
and I had to climb 7 floors.
There I discovered
a community that meets
to smoke cigarettes
and exchange gossip.
I found a group
that airs their laundry
as they discuss Brazil,
Germany’s win
or the upcoming Eid.
There kids play and build stamina
going round and round and round
and cockroaches scuttle
in search of food and new frontiers. 
There I huff and puff and think
If not for the broken elevators
would I even know about
the secret life of the stairwells
that forge bonds

unlike any other.

Tuesday 17 June, 2014

What to expect during the monsoons


  • Getting completely drenched even with your best rain gear on
  • Men who wear their lungis like a mini skirt (though they will have a major issue if women wore similar skirts)
  • Puddles that make your car jump sky-high
  • Getting poked in the eye by someone’s umbrella
  • Impossible-to-see-through car windows despite being glass
  • Streams and pond where there were none before
  • Suffocating hot buses on account of all the shutters down
  • Dangerously high levels of body odor in above mentioned situation (make sure to have a gag bag)
  • Slipping & falling at least once especially in a muddy area
  • Finding your foot caked in mud after u step into an innocent puddle
  • Reaching home and finding everything in your bag soaked
  • Someone will definitely share his/her fully-wet condition with you, physically
  • Spend entire days feeling unconnected because you have no electricity
  • Find your way blocked by all kinds of fallen plants  and sometimes cars too
  • Invisible mosquitoes EVERYWHERE

Tuesday 20 May, 2014

Home Again

     Easter, true to its spirit, was one full of surprises, pleasant memories and nostalgia. For some reason I thought I would be flying out on a Wednesday till a chance reminder from hubby on Monday night made me realize that I was actually flying out on Tuesday. Oh dear! Then it was a last-minute mad rush to pack. I ran helter-skelter trying to get everything packed into my bags while I ensured the luggage didn’t exceed the weight limit. By Tuesday evening I had finally packed it all, though stuffed would be a better word. Now I was excited to leave. My friend’s warning that they would charge me if I went even a bit over the luggage weight limit, had me do a last minute repacking.

    Having checked in online (I was within the weight limit, yay!) and being early, I was one of the first people to check-in. At the boarding gate I finally deciphered what the lady was announcing. It wasn’t a new word sones that I was hearing (like scones without the c) but ‘zones’. I was definitely ready to leave. The entire journey was trouble-free unlike my usual flights. The only issue was I didn’t get to sleep much thanks to pre-journey anxieties and the old lady in the next seat having extreme bad breath in addition to leaning on me.

     Though I breezed through Dubai’s airport security and immigration, it took forever to get my bags from the carousel. When I finally found my bags, my cousin Sunil had been waiting a while for me at the airport. Soon though we were at his beautifully decorated flat, where I met his wife and younger son. Adi the elder son was by then off at school. After a good breakfast, including some yummy avocado juice, we were ready to leave for Abu Dhabi (my cousin had work there too that day).

     I think I dozed off quite a bit on the ride being lulled by the a/c. Poor cousin probably heard my snores! Hubby was waiting for me near his flat when we arrived. After a quick goodbye we went up to the flat. After feasting on takeout from FFC, hubby was back at work and I had a nap. I must have slept like a log since I got up only when hubby banged on the door.

     After tea we decided to venture out to church. Another cousin of mine, and family, picked us up and we went together. After mass we went to Khalidiya Mall. This was my first time in a mall in Abu Dhabi, since when I left the U.A.E. there were no malls in this emirate. The lighting outside was pretty. We roamed around a bit gawking at the stores. At the food court I saw Hardees was still around thought the logo had changed. We had ice-creams from McDonald’s that cost just 1 AED each and then dined from the various options there. Judy, my cousin’s daughter, thoroughly enjoyed herself. By then I was tired out and was again sleeping like a log back home.
Made me remember my childhood

Judy is all smiles

B&W
Beautiful lights at the mall
     I woke up at 6 next morning. After coffee we dressed and had breakfast at the Udupi Restaurant nearby. I had pooris after ages. After leaving me at the stop, hubby went off for work while I waited for my first experience in a bus in Abu Dhabi. Finally my bus came and I got on, waving my bus pass at the driver. The bus was quite comfortable though slightly crowded being peak time. I got a seat after a few stops and began to enjoy my view of the Abu Dhabi that was now new to me, as well sights I had long forgotten. I got off at Marina Mall since that was where I was planning to spend the morning.

     Marina Mall was definitely huge and it took me all morning just to see the stores. I saw almost all of the major designer brands as well as some stores I had heard of abroad. By the time I had finished window shopping, I was pooped and decided to sit down with some iced coffee and a croissant at Starbucks. I enjoyed watching the musical fountain while I drank my coffee. Feeling ready for another round, I went to the Carrefour in the basement and proceeded to shop as well as take pictures on my phone of things I had once grown accustomed to. I would later be posting these pictures to a Facebook group I was part of (in case you’re wondering, people in this group were no longer in Abu Dhabi and hence cherished anything that reminded them of their old home).


Play of light from decortions


A mannequin on display as part of mall promotions


Dancing fountain


     Finally  by 3 p.m. I was done. Ready to go home, I realized I had lost my bus pass. Utterly distraught I called hubby who then explained to me how I could get home without the pass. You see, in my earlier excitement I hadn’t noticed the sign inside the bus next to the exit that said I could ride within the city if I deposited 2 AED in the coin box. I finally managed to get a bus and was relieved to exit the scorching heat outside. Since it was afternoon I enjoyed a peaceful ride back in an almost empty bus. Getting off I was slightly confused but then finally managed to find the right building. Back home I had a nice siesta till hubby returned  from work.

     Being Maundy Thursday, we decided to go for the English service in the evening. By the time I was finally ready we thought we might be late and grabbed a taxi. We arrived in the church just as the mass began and I was stunned by the crowd. It was 4 times what I remembered. Despite being an outdoor mass the place was packed. Phew! After the blessing we moved out and contacted my cousin who was also within the premises. We managed to track him and then rode in his car to celebrate Passover at his wife’s niece’s place. After breaking bread with them we went to my cousin’s house. Breaking bread there as well we finally went to a family friend’s home who by then had been waiting for us for over an hour! There too we had another breaking of bread followed by a light dinner. I was thankful it was Passover week because then I didn’t have to tell people I’m a vegetarian (Catholics avoid meat and fish during the week).

     For those of you unaware of this tradition, Syrian Christians from Kerala traditionally celebrate Maundy Thursday by making unleavened bread (appam) and what can be termed as the accompanying sweet sauce (paal). This is in commemoration of the first Passover mentioned in the Old Testament. The head of the household cuts and serves the kurishappam (appam containing a cross made from the blessed palm leaves of Palm Sunday) to all present, in order of seniority. This is preceded by a short prayer.

     I enjoyed my Maundy Thursday because I got to see my old school once again and experience mass at the church. In addition I spend some wonderful time talking to family friends, exchanging news and sharing memories. Most surprising was when at the last place I visited, immediately after dinner, the lady of the house began to serve all the food gifts I had brought for them. Their eagerness to share all the simple stuff I had got them was truly heart-touching. Around 12 a.m. we got home and promptly fell into bed.


Posing with old friends
School stage revamped

My old school is still the same

     Since it was Good Friday next day – a day Catholics usually spend in contemplation and prayer – we spend the day at home, only venturing out for the service at church. We arrived quite early this time only to find the previous mass was still just halfway through. Since the masses were outdoor, we decided to take respite from the heat in church. There I saw my senior from school in the front row though I doubt she would know me. We finally found seats outside for the service we had planned to attend. I saw another senior as well but we were too far away to approach here. It made me think how a lot of us ex-Abu Dhabians were returning to our old homes. Following mass we dined at Figaro’s Pizza nearby and went home.

     Next day was a busy day for us since it was the weekend. I had planned some stuff to do and so we set off early in the morning for the first stop of the day – The Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque. We took the bus and with the help of the driver got off at the right stop. I took the pretty bridge across, getting some beautiful pictures on the way of the 6th largest mosque in the world. We had missed the first tour of the day by a few minutes. So we went to find the place where I could rent a burqa. I had purposely worn short sleeves so I could try out the experience. The extreme heat did not help at all. Thankfully wearing the burqa wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be and was a respite from the heat. 

The mosque


World's largest carpet
Burqaed!            
  

Cooling blue


     We had planned to wait for the next tour but decided to just roam the mosque on our own. The place was beautiful and covered with detailing that showed fine craftsmanship. Even the floor tiles were pretty. I loved the chandelier in the main dome. Everything was so beautiful I felt like gazing at it forever. I took so many pictures I could create an entire photo album of just the mosque. I was sorry I couldn’t see Sheikh Zayed’s mausoleum since I would like to have paid my respects to him. When we were done touring and returning the burqa, we hopped onto the next bus back home.

     Hubby suggested going to the World Trade Centre Mall (The Souk at Central Market). The architecture was refreshing to the eye with its old world charm. The stained glass windows were really pretty. Lunch, we decided, would be at Shakespeare and Co. That I had read about online. I ordered a vegetable burger and hubby a vegetable sandwich thinking that it would be just that and hence a light lunch. But when our orders came we realized what a lot we had ordered as there were several accompaniments. By the end of it I was stuffed. The restaurant food was delicious being handmade. The decor was absolutely charming to this book lover. The place truly reflected a Shakespearean charm and wished I could do the same to my home.


Inside the mall

Shadow play

Detail at Shakespeare & Co.

     I had seen a souvenir shop on my way to the restaurant and I went back to pick up a few gifts. We then moved on to the Emirates Palace Hotel where I had booked a free tour of the current exhibit at 3 p.m. At the entrance I noticed a dress code sign. Thankfully I was within limits but I noticed quite a few people walking happily around in violation of the dress code. Inside the hotel I marvelled at the cost gone into the myriad decorations. The hotel’s colour scheme seemed to gold and beige. We spend a few minutes learning about the gold vending machine at the hotel from the staff in charge. Apparently you can buy gold coins and pendants with the hotel’s seal just like in any other vending machine. They also sell gold- plated pieces.


Checking out the gold vending machine


A corridor at the hotel
     Since we had some time to spend before the tour we decided to try out the restaurant. I ordered a nice tall iced coffee and hubby went for Cappuccino. While the drinks were good, the price was definitely on the expensive side. Realizing we were going to be late for the tour, we quickly went to the place only to realize we might have been given the wrong directions by the staff. We finally found the exhibition. Our tour guide Amanda was sitting at the desk there and explained we were the only ones for the last tour of the exhibit. She ushered us inside and a few minutes later we began the quick tour.
Iced coffee
     Let me give a brief rundown. The exhibit was of some of the works of Bill Fontana - an American composer and artist who developed an international reputation for his pioneering experiments in sound.  His work consists of a mix of sounds and sights.  In simple terms, he records everyday sounds that one might never hear otherwise. For example, one of the exhibits was the sounds from under the Sheikh Zayed Bridge; another was the sounds and a video of the elevators in the Eiffel Tower. My favourite was his recording of the sounds of the Australian jungle in the midst of an eclipse.

     Amanda was rather friendly and only too eager to explain everything. But we soon had to leave because we had midnight mass to attend. So off we went back home and had a short nap before dinner. When we were ready we went to my cousin’s home. Since he was going to be doing one of the readings for the Easter vigil, we decided to go to church together.

     Parking was a major problem, so my cousin dropped us near the church and went to park the car. In the midst of the huge crowd I met my classmate. Though we spoke for under a minute it was good to see her. Finally we found some seats. After a while Mass begin. Though sleepy it was exciting to be going for Mass at my old church again. I also got to listen to my cousin read which went well. After mass, hubby and my cousin broke their abstinence with shawarma.  My cousin’s daughter meanwhile was fast asleep in her mother’s lap. But she did manage to clutch the chocolates I tried to pass on to her.


     After snacking on a falafel sandwich it was bedtime. The next day we woke up a bit late, it being Easter. Saiju was off and so we went to Khalidiya Mall once again to watch Captain America. I tried the white hot chocolate at Starbucks but was disappointed with the taste. I enjoyed the movie especially since I was watching with hubby after such a long time.

     My cousin had invited us for lunch and so we went there. Judy was only too happy to receive the Beanie Baby I got her (she loves animals). We feasted on soya cutlets, fried rice and mutter paneer/ beef curry, and ice-cream. After lunch we went back home for a quick nap since I had promised a friend to be there by 5 p.m.

     Thus by 5 we found ourselves at an old family friend’s home. Salim Uncle and my mum had worked in the same bank and were great friends. We met him and his daughter after more than decade and also met his grand kids (some of them). Kiran treated us to feast and it tasted just the way her mum made. It felt nice catching up on old times and memories . I left with fond memories and gifts.


With old friends

     Saiju then suggested we go to National cinema for another movie in remembrance of our movie marathons. This time we saw the entertaining Malayalam movie – Ringmaster. Being about a dog and his trainer, I certainly enjoyed it all. After the movie, as per my request, we stopped at Green House, the department store. I was thrilled to see that I could find stuff within my student budget for gifting home. After a quick jaunt we left for home.

     Hubby had to go to work next day and so I took a bus to Wahda Mall which was just a short distance away. I finished window shopping in a few hours and then started my actual purchasing. First stop was Daiso Japan where I picked some inexpensive gifts. Then a stroll through Lulu Supermarket and I was done for the day. Back home I had a snack and went back to bed.


Loved this display

Blooming

Al Wahda Mall

     When hubby got back we had tea. As per the plan I was supposed to visit another cousin that evening, but for certain reasons the visit had been cancelled and we decided to go to the Iranian markets. Hubby first took me to the New Iranian Souq but there was little there for me. So we watched the sea for a bit and then took the next bus to the Old Iranian Souq. We walked into a store that I really liked but was overpriced for my tastes. But they did have awesome tea sets which I would have definitely bought if I had a house there. I did manage to find some of my favourite German knives and bought a whole set.
View of the sea from the Iranian market

     The souq itself was rather dismal with only plastic furniture and inexpensive crockery and vessels for sale on one side. The rest consisted of various stores that sold different kinds of plants. When we were done another family friend came and picked us up. They had bought gifts for my parents and got me a nice watch as well. After treating us to pizza at Dominoes, we said our farewells since I would leave next day.

     The last day of my stay was spend in shopping for last minute stuff. Hubby was off again, so we went to Green House again where I shopped a lot more. Being the season of spring sales we were able to finally get some clothes for hubby’s nephews and niece at very reasonable prices from some of the shops in the lane. Alas! If only I had had more time I would have gone shoe shopping as well since I saw some lovely ones.

     Back home we had lunch, slept and I packed up. I was worried about the weight since we didn’t have a weighing machine and there was no way to do so till I reached Dubai airport. With fingers crossed we left for the Emirates office where I was to get the bus to Dubai airport. Hubby’s classmate from college met us there and we discovered we had both studied in the same school. How funny!

      When it was time to board the bus it was with great sadness I left my hubby behind. We reached the airport after about 2 hours and once inside I was struck by the vastness of the terminal. I could easily have got lost in there. I was directed to the check-in counter and lo and behold! My check-in luggage was 200 grams underweight! Wow!

     After trekking through the airport duty free I sat down for a hot chocolate. Finally, with some last minute purchases I reached the boarding gate. I had a smooth flight and slept after dinner till it was nearly time to land. I breezed through immigration where I came across Malayalam actor Indrajith. But unfortunately I had to wait more than an hour for my bags to come. It made me realize the reason a new international terminal was being built in Kochi – with all the flights coming in, the baggage carousel area was crowded and there were no seats. I can’t wait for the new terminal to open. I was one of the last of them to leave but was sent back at the gate because of some forms.

     So after 4:30 a.m. I finally reached outside and found dad waiting there. Just I was hurriedly trying to get into the car, I saw my old teacher. Amazingly she remembered me and told me she had just retired. Funnily we had been on the same flight! What a coincidence! She was one of the people I had hoped to meet in Abu Dhabi but I was thankful that I got to meet her at least here. All too soon I was on my way back home with lots and lots of memories of a few short days in my birth city. I hope to go back again soon, so wish me luck with that. 

Thursday 10 April, 2014

Cat Chronicles

cats on the rooftop
cats in my chair
cats asleep on the table
n above the microwave.
cats at my feet in bed
cats atop the ol' tv
cats amidst the oranges
n peeing in the sink.
cats lying near the sleeping dog
n in dad's favourite armchair
cats fast asleep in my lap
n on the laundry pile.
cats climbing the banana tree
n fighting with an overgrown puppy
cats watching mum cook
n dad locking the gates.
cats hiding in Rafeeq's auto
n winding their way across windows
cats trying to roll a stone
n hoping to catch the chick.
cats watching the washing machine
n people going to work in the morning
cats trying to steal fish
n eating biscuits n chips.
cats begging for a jug of milk
n cats hanging from mum's apron
cats asleep on my computer
n hiding in a brown paper bag.
cats on my left cats on my right
woe is me! cats in my dreams as well.

Tuesday 8 April, 2014

Rain Man

Rain clouds rumble
lightning slaps
thunder screams
dogs whimper
chickens hide
trees shiver
houses humph
electricity disappears
people curse
mosquitoes feast
candles sweat
cars cry
and you
talk about 
the power of your prayer.